Nicholas Sean Windsor - Site Memorial Online

Happy Birthday Darling! xxxxx Missing you everyday in every way.

Hey big bro'. Happy birthday!!!!!!! I love you so much. I wish i'd reached out to you as i got older. I truly regret the fact that we didnt have an adult relationship. If we did and you were here, i'd be planning the BIGGEST BESTEST party for you! I wish you could have met Jay, the love of my life. I like to think that you two would have gotten on so well. You guys are so simmular. Well, you can see him now when you look down from heaven, what do you think? :)

Nicky, please look over us all and keep us safe. But, most importantly please keep looking over Lewis. I am sure he is hurting today on his daddies birthday. Keep an eye on him! Anyway, nick we all miss you and wish you were here with us. Just know that justice was done for you!
I love you!!! 
 
Love from,
your lil sister!
Kayleigh and Jay

Mother’s Day for Me is never Letting You Go 

They closed the coffin.  I could kiss you no more.  Gone from my sight was the smile I adored.

My heart lies broken you were stolen away.   Gone from my life, on one damp November day.

You flew to heaven.  I could hold you no more.  Today all I can say is I miss more and more.

How I miss you.  And the world doesn’t know.  The hardest thing imaginable was letting you go.

I’m your mother, and you’re my child,

For my darling son Nicholas I want to hold you once more.

Mummy

Dear Friend,

Thank you for you heartfelt words of sorrow and understanding that all of us Mom's go through with the devestating loss of our children.  I really believe that no other loved one's can possibly know the depth of our sadness and loss of our child as only a mother can.  In my case it was suicide!  My son was  like Nicholas with so much love and sensitivity in their hearts that their deaths were ten fold as tragic.  Your son was murdered and the agony must also be so unnbearable.  There isn't a day that goes by that I don't relive Aaron's final days before making that final decision and in my mind I replay and somehow try to change the events of that horrible day.  I wasn't allowed to see him after it happened.  My ex-husband found him but has never even after 31/2 years has spoken to me about it.  Absolutely will not talk to me and that has been so hard for me as I have no one except my beloved daughter Sherry to talk about Aaron.  My oldest son has also taken that road and will not speak of his brother to me.  I know they hurt but to not be able to share and console each other has devestated me.  I forgive them but I don't forget what they in their privacy, have done to me.  I don't know if I am sending this in the right area of Nicholas's website,  please feel free to change it to any area wish.  Much Love, Rita

 

For some things there are no shortcuts,no easy remedies when life throws you a curve ball and brings you to your knees.Sometimes it seems you can't win however hard you try when your faith is sorely tested and all you do is cry.It does no good to gripe,complain,when you're not up to par because true friends will understand and love us as we are.We sometimes need a helping hand before we see the light,and just knowing prayers are answered will help us through the night.We're not alone in time like these unless we choose to be,for God won't leave us comfortless in times of tragedy.There are angels all around us to catch us when we fall,and through His tender mercies we can rise above it all.Clay Harrison(Author)PatrickJay*GrdMama

Kayleigh,

The loss of a loved one is always the hardest thing to bear. But Just remember you have an entire family (meaning my side too) that dearly cares for you. I love you.

 

Jay.

 

PS all the super sappy stuff is just between you and me. :)

I feel your pain whenever you talk about Nick, only a pain a mother knows.  My prayer is that time will heal this pain for you and your family.

I am very sorry for your great loss.  I am sure there is not greater loss than loosing

a child and especially at such a young age.

Do not stand by my grave and weep

I am not there...I do not sleep.

I am a thousand winds that blow

I am a diamond glint on snow

I am the sunlight on ripened grain

I am the gentle autumn rain.

 

When you awake in the morning hush

I am the seift uplifting rush

Of quiet birds in circling flight

I am the soft starshine at night.

Do not stand by my grave and cry

I am not there...I did not die.

_ Anonymous

No words can fill a heart that breaks.  Know that I feel your grief today and pray that someday your pain will ease.  You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.